Asking for and dealing with feedback is part of the deal. You learn from the advice trusted friends offer you. But it is much harder dealing with unsollicited criticism, though that is nevertheless also an inherent side-effect of making music. Or rather of putting your music out there (or any other ‘product’ you make, be it music, books, paintings, etc…).
You could stay in your comfort zone, your studio, your basement or attic. And that’s ok too. It is fulfulling to make and create for your own ears/eyes only.
So why should I ‘release’ my music? Is it to feed my ego? Don’t think so, because my ego gets hurt more than it gets fed. (That one negative review will have more impact than the hundred positive ones)
Well, the word ‘release’ says it all really. I let go. I set it loose. From the moment I create something it leads its own life. I can nurture it and shape it a little, but in the end it has a will of its own:
When I listen to older stuff I made, I often wonder how I did it and I feel as though I couldn’t do it again. I wonder where the song came from, where the idea come from, the melody, the hook, the inspiration. Without going too ‘new-age’ I basically feel like a conduit. Something flows through me and ends up as a song. So to keep it for myself would be a shame.
So far for the philosophical side.
The practical side is a bit more … practical.
When I started making music, people said things like: “You should do something with it.” Doing something with it is very vague, but it’s basically “record it as best as you can and put it out there”. Or to answer to the criticism my father had: “He makes nice music, but no one can or may hear it.”
So I guess I release music because I think it deserves to be out there (and not just because I created it), and because it makes me grow.
Putting it out there is being vulnerable. Being vulnerable is hard. And no one is perfect.
“Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.”―Albert Einstein
“Personal growth is humbling and often humiliating. However, it’s better to be conscious than ignorant; even when consciousness comes at the price of comfort and convenience.” – Benjamin P. Hardy